a late night conversation

blueray_7: you remember?
dikka18: kudos to that memory of yours
blueray_7: I remember a lot of things
blueray_7: anyway
blueray_7: I'm not talking to you because I want you to unblock me
blueray_7: that's my burden
blueray_7: it's that open door I have to walk myself through
blueray_7: no one else can do that for me
dikka18: :) but id definitely feel good should i be able to help you with that
dikka18: yeh
dikka18: thats the thing
blueray_7: well
blueray_7: feel good already
blueray_7: I find comfort in the fact that I can talk about it with you
dikka18: thats good
dikka18: :)
dikka18: im listening
blueray_7: although I'm a bit shamed sometimes
dikka18: with that?
dikka18: you shouldnt be
blueray_7: coz it feels like I'm a spotted cow
dikka18: i believe every artist goes through that phase
blueray_7: and everyone thinks I can produce milk
blueray_7: but I can't
blueray_7: but I'm still grazing
blueray_7: all the while questioning my existence as a cow
blueray_7: condemning it on some days
dikka18: stop taking things too harsh
dikka18: cmon
dikka18: relax
dikka18: :)
blueray_7: "oh I wish I wasn't a cow so I wouldn't have to squirt milk!"
blueray_7: only to find that it comes natural to other cows
blueray_7: this making me even more paranoid
blueray_7: that I want to give up my spots and trade them for stripes instead
blueray_7: so I can live under the breath of a lie as a zebra
dikka18: oh thats beautiful !
blueray_7: and remain unhappy for the rest of my life!
dikka18: what a brilliant reflection
dikka18: i like it
dikka18: put it in your blog !